Before I get into this can we all just a take a moment to appreciate cold brew iced coffee from Starbucks?
(could I be more basic right now?)
^^anyone else just read that in the voice of Chandler from Friends? No?
OKAY ANYWAYS to the point. Something I wanted to talk about is positivity and thinking positive. For me this is something that I normally sort of, “pride” myself on. I feel like no matter what’s going on I’m usually able to keep myself thinking positive about the situation. However, for the last week, this has not been the case. With my husband and dog in MN, and me in AZ, knowing I’m leaving my job in 3 months, all this change, I have become the most negative Nancy ya’ll have ever met. I have NOT been dealing with it well inside at all, and I couldn’t really seem to figure out why at first. I felt like I was doing everything I could to be happy and positive, and no matter what I was bitter and depressed. I kept telling myself I was trying so hard to be positive, but the truth that I now realize? I wasn’t being positive, because I didn’t really want to be.
I had made up my mind. I had made up my mind that the situation sucked, that I was lonely, that I was sad, and that this was going to be difficult. I kept praying and praying for strength to be positive and get through it, and it wasn’t happening. But you know why? Because I wasn’t letting God give me strength. We can pray for things, but we have to be willing to receive it. It wasn’t until I finally realized I was doing this that I’ve now realized what has to happen to turn it back around.
I know times are hard. Right now the situation I’m in is difficult for me, and it’s going to be difficult. But is being angry or depressed about it going to make it any better? Hell no! It’s just going to make it that much worse. So when you’re in a situation where you find yourself letting the negative thoughts take over, you have to really ask yourself, is being upset about this going to make it easier? Is it going to the change the situation? If the answer is no, then its time to change your thinking.
I have a bad habit of looking to the future. For the past week I have been so focused on what’s going to happen 3 months from now when I move. Where are we going to get a house? What am I going to do for a job? How am I suppose to go 3 months without seeing my dog? (lol but for real). What I’ve been failing to remember is to enjoy the now. To remember that God has it planned out, but the present, the part I’m still in, that’s still part of the plan. And me pouting because life isn’t perfectly how I want it right now… well that’s messing up that plan.
You don’t have to have it all figured out to stay positive. In most cases the negative thoughts are going to come easier than the positive ones, because we’re living in a negative world. It’s easy to just want to curl up in bed with Netflix and let the time pass. But whatever it is that’s going on right now…. YOU get to decide how you feel about it, and how you’re going to handle it. If you decide you’re going to be positive about it, you have to really want that. But when you start thinking more positive about everything is when amazing things start to happen. I’m not saying you can never feel other emotions because that’s just not realistic. I will tell you right now I am one of the most dramatic people you will meet (in a good way of course 😉 ) and I feel a lot of different emotions in a day. It’s important to be aware of it, and to not let the emotions take over you, but to remember that you’re the one in control.
So instead of being sad about the next 3 months, I’m going to be excited about them. No, not everyday will be perfect, and that’s ok. But I’m not going to be anxious about it. I’m going to enjoy my time still in AZ, embrace the change that’s coming, and be excited about whatever it is that God has planned for me next, even if I cant quite figure out what that is yet.