Let’s try this thing out

So I am finally getting around to starting a blog. Something I have been telling myself that I’ve wanted to do forever. Not because I have all these brilliant things to say, even if I do think I’m pretty clever sometimes. I have always had a passion for writing, and most of the time it’s nothing but jumbled thoughts that I just need to get out of my head. Rambling, which I’m doing already. Lately my head is filled with thoughts on this new experience I feel I’m having in life.

It’s called being happy. Now I’m not saying I’ve lived some negative depressed life until now, that’s not the case at all. I’ve always considered myself pretty blessed, but lately I have this new way of thinking, this new outlook on life. I’ve made some lifestyle changes that I’m sure have had something to do with it, but life pretty much rocks right now.

My biggest lifestyle change would be the fact that I moved across the country. I finally built up the courage to move more than 15 minutes away from my parents. Now this is a frickin miracle! Coming from a suburb in Minnesota, I never imagined myself leaving. How could I ever just pack up and leave my family, and my friends behind, and be okay with it?! A year ago I moved to Arizona, and it was the best decision I’ve ever made. I’m not saying I’m suddenly happier in life because I moved here, although the constant sunshine doesn’t hurt. Moving so far away, and being somewhere completely on your own is an experience I wish everyone had. The things you encounter on such a journey, or the things you learn about yourself are amazing. I’m happy here, but that doesn’t mean I’m not homesick everyday. I don’t know how long exactly I’ll be living here, or where I would even move to next. I believe that’s all God’s will, and that’s the beauty of life.

Another lifestyle change for me would be my health. I wouldn’t say I was fat and lazy before, but let’s just say I was 20 pounds heavier than I am now, and had no problem sleeping until noon. Make you’re own judgment call on that one. I created a new lifestyle where I am truly dedicated to eating healthy and being active. I will fully admit I think I look ten times better now, but when you dig deep that’s not really what this is about. It’s a tough world out there for us ladies. The comparisons, the gossip, the judging. I had buried myself so deep into insecurities I didn’t think it was ever possible for me to find my way out. I would spend all this time comparing myself to other girls, wishing I could have their legs, or their eyes, or their hair. I hated even looking in a mirror. When I made this lifestyle change yes my body did change, and this absolutely gave me a self esteem boost, but I started to realize what makes me beautiful is different from what makes the next woman beautiful, and that’s how we were created. I don’t have to follow the latest trends, or never be larger than a size 2 to feel good about myself. I am so in love with myself, the person God created me to be, the life I’ve been given , and all the people that God has placed in it. It’s because I finally realized all of this that I finally, can truly be happy.

So this is my random blog. I may post more random thoughts like this. I may share things that have to do with my fitness, my clothes, my food, my family, whatever. It may be seen by hundreds or it may be seen by no one. I guess we’ll see what happens.

 

Till next time loves ❤

 

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